Never Meant To Be

In the school of art, where people learn fine art, drawings, paintings and illustrating, a place where people with the same interest and curiosity towards art gathers and study to sharpen their skill and talent, a place where drawings and the ability of painting masterpieces is a common thing happening around, and among these future-to-be artists, there is this guy who does not know anything about art, who does not even know how to draw a simple and complete painting happens to be in the institution as well. It was never his dream or desire to be there as he knows nothing about arts, for there’s a reason why he ended up in the art institution, which is for the girl he falls for since high school. They knew each other back then but their relationship never went further or beyond friend, and even till now when they further their study to higher level of education, they are still bond at the same level where they only notice each other existence and not much conversation being done between them.

During their years in the institution, their relationship slightly improved, as there have more chances in bumping into each other due to his intentionally arrangement to be in the same major and even to be in the same class with her. What he ever wanted is to be with her as long as he can, looking at her back as her place located just 2 tables away from him, no matter she notices or not, his eyes will only stuck at her shadow. Time flies, and through time, he gathered and accumulate all the guts he has and look for a chance to confess his feeling towards her. Unfortunately his confession was left unanswered, being left unknown and pending all the while, even from time to time he tried his luck; all he ever got was an empty respond.

Until one day, he finally couldn’t take it anymore, struggling and suffering from an unpaid love, he decided to let go and gives up. He wrote a letter and left it on her table, expressing out all his feelings with words and ends the letter with the decision of giving up, stating that it’s because of his undying love that left him no choice but to surrender. Tear drops along as she reads each of every words, feeling deep pain within but still she kept the letter after finish reading it, leaving the matter aside unattended and continue with her life while on the other hand, he forces himself be tough and walks through the falls of his life.

Not long after, she receives an offer letter, providing her a chance to go over sea to further her studies in a more advance and better institution, and the news reaches him in no time. With the mixed up feeling, despair added up with the determination to let go, causes him to be in a very miserable situation, whether to ignore the news or tries to make her stay. Emotion has been buggering him since then, torturing him from time to time as he is not able to make any decision, being pressured under the desire to hold her back but at the same time he is trying his best to free himself from all the miseries. He soon made up his mind to look for her for the last time before she flies and all he wanted to do is to wish her farewell, to wish her the very last goodbye.

Just right before he was supposed to met her, while on his way to the meeting point, he by coincidence met up with one of her best friend, and within that few minutes of chit-chat, he was told that she was actually in critical situation, where she needs to seek treatment as soon as possible and that is the real reason behind why she did not reply to his confession and decided to go over sea. Without being able to imagine that such situation will occurs on him, he stood blank for a moment and does not know how to respond, he left speechlessly and his footstep started to change, from slow pace slowly turns into running, accelerating towards the place to meet, all that were in his mind is just to reach there as quickly as he can, to have a look at her as soon as he could.

She was already there, standing still waiting for him when he reaches there feeling breathless, and soon he asked why didn’t she tell him about her illness and her health, she was shocked at first but soon she explained that what’s matter most for her now is to cure her sickness, whether it will be a success or not, it’s not time yet for her to consider his appearance in her life. She expresses her gratitude and appreciates all the things he has ever done for her, all the sacrifices and efforts he has ever pour in for her, and now, all that she can reply with is apologize coz she knows that she could not repay him, with her poor health condition, she could not give what he ever wish for. He shows her a piece of his artwork, a picture of her he tried to illustrate, though it looks awful, she did smiles and it was the first time he ever saw her smiles. He made a promise that by the time she returns, he will be able to illustrate a good painting, he will be a professional artist by then. She nodded her head, look deeps into his eyes and she turns her back to him and starting to leaves with her heavy step, no one will ever understand how hard the step would be but nevertheless, she kept herself moving while assuring herself not to look back. As the pace gets heavier and heavier, tears start to drip, falling from her cheek to the ground, tear drops were all left behind as she finally left the place.

Two years later, he finally made it to a well known company being a visualizer, everything went smoothly after graduation, and never to be expect that he will be hired straight after graduation and moreover by such a big and potential company. His art and illustration has finally being recognised by people and the company looks high upon him as well. Since that day, he has not been hearing from her, never does know how the treatment ends up and never does know whether it was a success or not. Till one day, a courier service rang his door bell, delivering a parcel to him and apologizing to him that due to some internal as well as delivery problem that couldn’t be avoided, the parcel that was supposed to reach him a year ago finally reaches his hand today. Wondering while unpacking the parcel, he was shocked to see a drawing of himself with a letter together with it.

“Perhaps by the time you are reading this letter, I had left for the world far away that I could not return, I never give up hoping that one day I will be able to see you again as there’s a lot that I wanted to tell you. But it’s not matter anymore now; I hope that you will never give up on yourself for my very last wish. I’m sorry that I can’t hold on to the promise we made together before. I am glad that you did appear in my life, just that we were never meant to be together. Lastly, I never do have a chance to tell you, I Love You too. “

Tears drop on the picture as he finish reading the letter, holding tight to the drawing, it was the first and will be the last gift from her. It is the only thing left that belongs to her.